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Friday, March 02, 2007
peiling's feeling emo now so please pardon her.
ive not been as optimistic as i usually am, ive been pesimist rawr. i know there's like 12691894895 things i can be thankful for, for something as simple as being able to live for 365x14 + ... days. being thankful is getting increasingly difficult, and so is keeping the love joy and peace in my heart.
"ive got the joy joy joy joy down in my heart
down in my heart down in my heart
ive got the joy joy joy joy down in my heart
down in my heart to stay.
ive got the love of Jesus...
ive got the peace the passes understanding..."
"let the little children come to me and do not hinder them for theirs is the kingdom of heaven". man i love children's songs. because despite the simply and easy-to-understand lyrics, the meaning behind them is really great, and as i grow older i realise that it takes a lot of conviction to sing those songs. it's easy to sing/ say, but to do it is 12693562894 times harder. but that's just part of the process right, and i can only keep working it towards it. but sometimes when you try and try and things dont change, it's human nature to want to give up isnt it? but it's oh-so-exhausting and all you want is a break. but ahh oh well nevermind. i havnt been doing my qt, i havnt been reading my bible, wtc.
i just got uncle andrew's email and i was all o.O and still o.O over it. "Pei Ling will be the camp commandant and will be leading the camp committee as they plan for the youth camp this year." i thought we were just kidding when we had the discussion/ meeting. but ahhh if it was a meeting, of course it'll be serious right? noo peiling is unprepared and ah i dont know, scary scary scary! okay i shall call uncle andrew after i get off the comp. going down to church in the afternoon tomorrow, im crashing their band pract before going for bcy since people have been telling me to go down and say hello.
i havnt spoken/ smsed/ emailed brandon since monday. he called me yesterday but i rejected his call, dont ask me why. i guess we're both stressed and tired and we have our own set of things to deal with, and i think we need more time to cool off, lest our conversation ends up like the last one. and this time i should be apologising first because i was mainly to blame rawr. but yo dude, learn to start caring for yourself okay.
simplicity.
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peiling
30 march
christian
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